I don’t want to believe it. I told Mark last night that I was so very scared about his “procedure” today. He told me not to worry about it ’cause he knew it was just the hole had gotten bigger and they’d fix it. I told him I didn’t think so and my heart of heart’s told me it was worse than that. He asked me what I thought it was. I said blockage, open heart surgery.
I never in a million years dreamed that it would be even worse than that!!!!!
Mark has a very rare heart condition called pulmonary hypertension. The doctor who worked on him today said that name means that the blood pressure of his heart is too high and they have no idea what causes it. He is going to try his best to treat it here BUT the medicine is very expensive and there are only a handful of clinics in the country who deal with treating this condition. If he can’t help Mark, he will be sent to one of these clinics in Chicago.
I can’t take this!!!! I am crushed, overwhelmed, I don’t even have a word that is close enough to conveying how I feel. Shock is putting it mildly. I thought I was prepared. I thought God had forewarned me that it was going to be bad, but this?????????????????
Why does it have to be something so RARE????????????????? Can anyone reasonably expect to receive more than one miracle in their life, more than two miracles for a couple? I’m afraid to believe that there will be another, what if there’s not? I wouldn’t survive it.
Your prayers are needed more than ever before!