Snap. I wondered if I would be able to see my pink beanie in the photograph. It had been at least three weeks since Christmas had arrived and left, and yet I found a Christmas ball upon this tree. Hanging. Dangling. I felt the strange urge to reach out and snap the twig. Snap. I watched it fall, gracefully into the snow with a thud. It didn’t break. I could still see my damn reflection. The seemingly perfect sphere wasn’t so perfect. I could see marks of erosion and decay, like the ornament had developed cancer. My distorted reflection laughed at me, at my failed career. I kicked my reflection. Smash. It broke into a million, fractured pieces in the snow.
– Ermisenda Alvarez
And as there it lay
broken before my eyes
That momentary reaction
how I did despise
When it was because
my character they attack
While saying that there was
a “something” I did lack
To make me feel less
so they could feel more
Deserving of the praise
that they just lived for
Yes, I have many fractures,
little cracks and flaws
But I get them honestly
each one has a cause
They call my life
a mess and failure
And yet I have to wonder
if the same they could endure
I’ve taken every punch
still on my feet standing
I will not ever buckle
in this world so demanding
I’m sorry oh little orb
I took it out on you
When at the moment it seemed
you were laughing at me too
If my life was solid
without cracks in my ball
However could my light
shine through then at all?
Of who I am today
I truly must be proud
And to all the haters
I’ll scream it out loud!
Teresa Marie 1/14/12 ©
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by Ermilia
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