Why Disheartened?

Give up?

When the world says
I should give up

I ask it for
just one more cup

For I have time
before I must go

And I can take
whatever it may throw

Then hope does whisper
“Try just once more!”

As I say okay
and the world ignore!

Teresa Marie  10/6/11

It Just Seems To Me

It just seems to me…
……………………………………….. that all I ever do…
…………………………………………………………………………………. is sit around here crying

Why doesn’t anybody see…  
………………………………………….what I am going through…  

…………………………………………………………………………………….as the world I’m defying?

My life seems to be…       
………………………………………… full of pretense and untrue…
…………………………………………………………………………………….. why even keep on trying?

And it occurs to me …
…………………………………………..that what I should do…
……………………………………………………………………………………….is to get on with dying.

Could I really myself kill?…
……………………………………………I guess you never know…      
……………………………………………………………………………………….but then again why not?

Just take a little pill…     
…………………………………………….and off to sleep go…         
………………………………………………………………………………………..my pain to be forgot!

Don’t think that I will?…       
…………………………………………….It’d be all for show?…   
………………………………………………………………………………………..You should then be shot!

My heart would go still…   
……………………………………………..the winds cease to blow…  
…………………………………………………………………………………………when removed from this spot.

Seems that everyone hates me…    
………………………………………………what’s there to live for?…   
…………………………………………………………………………………………..can’t take it one more day.

It seems like hell you see…
………………………………………………so why take it anymore…
……………………………………………………………………………………………when there’s another way!

I’m sure you won’t agree…   
……………………………………………….as my body hits the floor…
…………………………………………………………………………………………….when nothing did I say.

Then you can bury me…         
………………………………………………. and my actions then deplore…
………………………………………………………………………………………………as they cover me with clay .

Teresa Marie   9/14/11