Not What I Expected

He said “I love you”
And I felt it in my soul
“I’ll take care of you,
For that is a husband’s role”

“If you’ll marry me,
I promise not to leave you,
And as you will see
To never, ever hurt you”

“I do believe you”
Yet the words were hard to say
“I’m in love with you”
But my head screamed “Run away!”

My heart he did steal
And he heard me say “I do”
Then prayed it was real
But my soul already knew

Vowing “I love you”
To the man I respected
Meant “forever” too
A silent fear deflected

I stayed ever true
Though with time felt rejected
‘Cause when God took you
It’s not what I expected

Grief moved in to stay
The moment that I lost you
When there is no way
To love this life without you

For my husband, Mark (Aug., 1961 to Jan.,2019)

Teresa Marie  7/4/20

 

New Blog Posts

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Hello Friends,

I haven’t seen many of you on the new blog yet.  Since I believe that some of you would care to know about the upheaval in & total destruction of part of my life, I am posting the links to my new blog posts.  I hope to see you visit me there.

Love, peace & blessings to all,

Teresa Marie

Links:

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/51

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/42

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/63

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/78

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/82

https://wordpress.com/post/mindexplosion819728067.wordpress.com/88

I Thought of You Today

Calling Out to My Praying Friends

Hello dear friends!  September was a busy month for many reasons, some good and some bad.

In  addition to dad, Shawna and Blaine having their birthdays; Sara gave birth to her first child, Sebastian Lee, weighting 7# 1oz, 19″ long, on Sept. 17th.  She and her fiance are thrilled with their little cutie pie:

That was the good news!

A week or so after that we found out that Mark’s dad has a fast growing cancer in his throat.  Specifically, in the lymphnoid just below his esophygas which feeds all the others below it.

I am asking everyone to say a pray for him, please. 

The first of October I lost my best friend, Penny!!  Those of you who have been with me for a while know who she is and just how much I loved her.  It was a total shock and I am still processing  it.  The grief has been overwhelming to me.  I am praying that if God intends to take Al from us too that he waits for a minute or two so I can get my breath.

When things like this happen, always ask God what it is that He is preparing me for that requires me to be so strong?  With everything happening in the world right now I’m not sure I want to know the answer to that question, but that’s a discussion for later on.

Please keep us in your prayers!
Love and blessings to you all!
Terri

Heart of Grief

Crazy Laughing

Even When

 

After an extended illness, Mark lost his maternal Aunt on Sunday.  My condolences are in this poem!  God bless her soul.

Fast As I Can

Pandora’s Box Of Pain

*Dedicated to my dear friend, who shall remain nameless but who will know it’s for her: L, with love

Enemy Mind