“I May Be Going Insane, But…” – Part 2

The neighbor next door to them had their porch light on.  Their little red Nova sat directly in front of their house and the porch light lit up the whole side of their car very brightly.  As Tess slowly realized it, movement caught her eye!  There was someone standing on the deck stairs of their trailer and she could see their shadow in the light reflection of the car!!

Now her head was pounding as hard as her heart was.  Okay, a couple of people would be thieves but this many of them could only mean one thing, cops!!   

Tess stood there transfixed on the scene unfolding before her eyes, frozen in thought and unable to act.  As she watched the shadows reflected on the car, she could see there were more than one, looked like three all together, lined up with their backs against the neighbor’s trailer.  When one moved slightly, she could make out the shape of what looked to be a pump-action shotgun!

“Oh bloody hell!” she said to herself.  Jolted into reality, Tess backed away from the window.  “I should wake Joe up!” instantaneously ran through her mind, followed by, “But what if it’s just the ‘shadow people’?”  she was answering herself now in a full-blown internal argument.

“He’s gonna be mad if you get him up for nothing!!  He has to go to work in the morning and he’s tired!!  You better watch some more to be sure of what you are seeing!”

“If that’s the cops and I don’t get him up right now, he’s gonna kill me even more so ’cause we will both be going to jail!  God, dear God, tell me what to do!  Is this really happening?”

Tess crept back to the window and gazed out again just in time to see two figures crouched behind the neighbor’s car, gently bouncing it and pulling it backwards.  “They realized that their shadows were reflecting on it!” her mind screamed in horror at her!  “You better go check out front again and see what’s happening out there.”

As Tess was moving back through the rooms to the kitchen window, she bumped into one of the chairs at the kitchen table, knocking it over with a loud bang.  “Shit!” she said out loud.

The walls of the trailer were paper-thin and Tess felt sure that anyone out there would have heard the sound.  Moving quickly to the window and barely lifting the blind out, she looked and saw several figures scrambling backwards into the shadows across the street in that yard.  “They heard it!!”  Practically running back to the living room window, she looked out there to see that the car had been moved far enough back so as to no longer show a clear reflection and the two figures flew out from behind it and back to the safety of the neighbor’s deck stairs.

“OMG, OMG!” Tess kept repeating over and over.  She didn’t want to go to jail!!  “Okay, calm down and get everything ready to flush down the toilet before you wake Joe up in case you run out of time!”

A mad dash scramble through the house ensued!  The drugs and paraphernalia were all gathered together in the little plastic tub she had grabbed out of the sink.  Running to the bathroom, she set it on the toilet seat and then went into the bedroom.  By now she was shaking so bad that her teeth were chattering.

Kneeling down next to the bed with her mouth up to Joe’s ear, she gently began shaking him and whispering his name, “Joe, Joe, wake up!!  It’s an emergency, Joe, wake up!”  Then she shook him harder.  Finally Joe opened his eyes and looked at her like he was about to kill her!

“What!!!” he snapped.

“Okay, don’t be mad at me please!!  I may be going insane and it may just be shadow people, but I’ve been watching them for almost an hour and I think we are about to be raided!”

Joe sat straight up in bed and looked at her.  “You’ve been up too long and are just seeing things, tell me what happened.”

“I think you’d better go look for yourself first because, if this is for real, we have no time to waste!”

Joe jumped up and pulled on his shorts, slipped his feet into a pair of moccasins and grabbed the Mag Light next to the bed.


“What are you doing?” Tess almost screamed!

“I’m going outside to look!”

“Are you crazy!!  What if the S.W.A.T. Team is really out there?”  Tess was terrified.

“We are busted either way, if I go out or if they come in, so I’m not second guessing what’s going on out there, I’m gonna find out for sure!!!”

With that he snapped on the flashlight and went out the door.  Tess thought she was going to throw up or have a heart attack or maybe even both!  She could hear Joe outside the trailer and looked out in time to see him cross the street to the neighbor’s yard and then come back.  

“Oh, double shit!” she said to herself, “It was the shadow people!!  He’s gonna kill me for waking him up!”

As Joe came back into the trailer, he looked at Tess with a half-disgusted stare and said, “Get some sleep, Tess!  And I’m not kidding either!”  Then he went back to bed.

Tess sat there for several more hours trying to calm her nerves.  “Wow!  That was such a detailed hallucination!  I’m never staying up for three days straight again!  Thank you God!!  Thank you Guardian Angels!!  I know you’ve got my back and I’ll try to stop all this crap, I promise!” and with that, she blissfully passed out!   The End…

Teresa Marie 5/25/12 ©

“I May Be Going Insane, But…” – Part 1

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Tess and Joe lived together in a Mobile Home Park that was known for its drug activity; from users to dealers to gang members.  They each had their own addictions; Tess was a “meth head” and Joe was a “freebaser”.  This is how the two had met in the first place, at their dealer’s house, soon after which Joe asked her out.  

Tess turned him down the first few times that he  had asked, but finally gave in after they had become such good friends.  It was love from then on.  She moved out of where she lived three days later, moved in with Joe and never looked back.

Tess had some pretty high up connections through her ex-roommate, who was one of her dealers.  The supply was abundant and rarely did they have to wait for it.  On one occasion, Tess did something that she hardly ever did, she stayed up doing her meth for three days straight.  (She knew a lot of people that would go for five, six and even seven days but she had a rule to always sleep on the third night.)

Joe had been asleep for a couple of hours and Tess was designing some posters to make for their bedroom when she thought she heard something outside.  (She normally was not the perpetual peeper in the house, Joe was.  It made her paranoid to keep peeking out the blinds.)  Beings that there had been some thefts in the neighborhood lately, she decided to look and see if anyone was outside their trailer.

As Tess moved from one window to another, the paranoia began to rise from the pit of her stomach.  The kitchen window, which faced the street, was the last one that she checked.  Just as she was about to walk away from it, she saw something move in the yard across the street.  After waiting for a minute to calm herself down, she looked out once more.  Staring at the spot for several seconds, there it was again!!  Someone was hiding behind the big oak tree in their yard!

Tess dropped the blind back into place and then walked through the dining area into the living room (which in their trailer were all connected with no walls to separate them) and shut off the lamp that she had been using, thereby plunging the room into darkness except for the nightlight in the hallway leading back to the bedroom.

Very quietly, doing her best not to run into anything, she made her way back to the blinds.  This time, Tess peeked out from the other side so as to have a better angle on the neighbor’s trailer and yard.  Sure enough, she could see the outline of someone hiding behind the tree.  As Tess watched them, she saw them signaling to someone else further back in the shadows of the yard.  All of the sudden, she could make out two more forms moving towards the first one in a crouched, duck walk, type of manner.

Dropping the corner of the blind back down again, panic started to take hold of her.  Her heart was racing almost as fast as her mind was.  She had been up doing meth for three days without a lick of sleep and thoughts were bouncing through her head so fast that she could barely consider one before she had another.

The impulse to keep watching was overwhelming.  Tip-toeing she moved to the window in the living room and looked out that one for several minutes before she realized what she was looking at.

The neighbor next door to them had their porch light on.  Their little red Nova sat directly in front of their house and the porch light lit up the whole side of their car very brightly.  As Tess slowly realized it, movement caught her eye!  There was someone standing on the deck stairs of their trailer and she could see their shadow in the light reflection of the car!!

Now her head was pounding as hard as her heart was.  Okay, a couple of people would be thieves but this many of them could only mean one thing, cops!!   to be continued

Teresa Marie 5/24/12 ©

Hookah Smoking Caterillar

I really do not
wish to go back

To prior days of
meth and smoking crack

When some strange things
thought I did see

That were all imagined
and could never be

A hookah smoking caterpillar
just does not exist

But it’s reality was
something I did insist

Yet the shadow people
were worst of all

When I’d see them
into paranoia I’d fall

I don’t know why
drugs I ever started

But I thank God
they have dearly departed!

Teresa Marie  10/10/11