Update and More Life Lessons Learned Wisdom

The world keeps turning
as faster
 it goes
bonfires burning

deliver their blows
the acid ‘s churning
as all heaven know    
and what I’m learning
while the stress grows
is all I’m earning
is an ulcer, suppose?

Teresa Marie  9/2/13  ©

Well, I said I would update you on everything, hopefully I remember it all:

Dad is all clear of cancer.  We are guessing that it just went too long before they realized that he needed surgery and has suffered permanent nerve damage in his spine 😦  The dementia is continuing to worsen.

Jodie’s son was buried on Wed.  Her grandson is doing pretty good now; granddaughter is doing much better and expected to recover, fully?  We will pray it’s so!  Children are strong, resilient little boogers.  Hoping for the best.

Mark is back to square one, we think, but are unsure.  One message said the tests he did were negative but he still needed to get the rest done.  The cardiologist told him last Friday that he didn’t, ?  He has an appt. with his regular doctor tomorrow, guess we’ll see what he says then.  He still can’t go back to work until they find the cause.  Burning through his vacation time rapidly and harvest will soon be upon us 😦

I need a break.  The stress finally took its toll and I slept for 2.5 days straight.  Only woke up to go to the bathroom and eat occasionally.  Hanging in there though 🙂  Thank you all for your comments, love and prayers!!  It means the world to us.

Love and blessings to you all, Terri

Now for some wisdom:

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The Latest on Mark After His Doctor Visit

Well, I’m still hoping for the lesser of evils here.  The Nurse Practitioner said, with his family history, we are probably looking at “early onset diabetes”.  They sent him home with a One Step, I think that’s what it was called, to check his blood sugar this weekend and keep a diary of the readings.  (Don’t forget about the fact that Penny has it and so we will know what those mean when he takes them.)  He is to go back on Monday and they will go over it all.  He said to me, “Ya, well you know I don’t like needles and shots!”  My reply was, “I’d take your needle over mine any day of the week.  Your’s would be no more than a bee sting!!” I’ve been getting the larger diameter/shorter needles lately which are only 2 1/2 inches long instead of the 3 inch ones.  The MS drug is inter-muscular so the needle has to be long enough to go beyond the layers of skin and fat on my thigh. Hey wait a minute!  Now that I have lost 40 pounds, it seems that I should be rewarded with maybe a 2 inch needle, doesn’t it?  I wish

Anyway, there is nothing new to report on our other crisis for now, but no news is good news, right?!

Thanks again for your prayers, they are being heard!

With  my love, ,  Terri


P.S.  I definitely need to have something on the lighter side, so look for my next post following shortly 😉

P.S.S.  I almost forgot about the pics of my latest work in progress, almost finished, in the dragon saga   No story as been written for it yet, sorry.  This house has it all, even a bonsai tree in the back and a magic vine!

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Situation Update; Keep Praying Please

I thank you for your faithfulness to me and mine!  i know I can count on you in times of need.

My brother and his wife said thank you and please continue to hold them up prayer as the next few days will be critical.

Their grandson suffered a severe laceration to his head but was up and trying to play this afternoon.  Prognosis is good that he will fully recover.

Their granddaughter suffered severe brain trauma resulting in a hematoma.  They have removed a small section of her skull to relieve the pressure and keeping her sedated.

Thank God for their car seats!  Otherwise it would have been a triple fatality.  So use them, my friends, and buckle yourselves up too.

Much love to you all, God bless, Terri

Urgent Need For Prayer!

I was going to come on here tomorrow and ask for prayers for my husband Mark.  Last Friday I got a call from him at work, his first week back, and he told be to come and get him.  I thought he must have hurt his back.  When I got there, he told be that he had passed out.  They were loading a train, he was driving the tugger which pulls the cars, he stopped, got out, bent over to pick something up and the next thing he knew was Moe was reaching down to help him up.  Well, he had an app. already scheduled with the neurosurgeon for Monday so he didn’t want to go to Urgent Care.  After arguing with him about that, I acquiesced on one condition; if it happened again we’d go to the ER.  Sunday night he informed me that he had done it twice more but didn’t tell me ’cause he didn’t want to fight about the ER.

He gave in to me about not going to work on Monday.  The neurosurgeon said it was all good from his end and Mark needed to get with his family doctor.  He went to work on Tuesday; I called the doctor and got him an app with the nurse practitioner for him on Friday.  I called his work today to leave him a message and his boss said “Well, he’s right here Terri.” and put Mark on the phone.  I said “You passed out again didn’t you?”  He said that he had.  This time he was in an office 75 feet in the air.  They sent hi m home with orders not to return until he can prove that it won’t happen again

So, now I am not only worried about it being his heart causing this but also about him losing his job.  I ask that you please pray for him/us.

Even more extreme is the other need for prayer:

My sister-in-law’s son was killed tonight in a car accident. His daughter and son were with him and his daughter has been airlifted to Riley’s Hospital in Indianapolis.  She is in critical condition. His son was taken by ambulance.  My heart is broken for her and them!  Please, please keep them in your prayers for the next few days.

Thank you!!  Love and blessings,Terri

I Pray For Angels


dadI was getting a good start on blogging again when all hell broke lose once more!!  
The new neurologist wants to run: a 24 hour brain scan; a new MRI; hearing and vision tests on me.  
Mark had emergency back surgery 2 1/2 weeks ago and is looking at permanent nerve damage there in his left lower half of his body.  
Dad has had one thing after another: the infection in his left testicle is finally getting better but the MRI that they did on his spine last week has now showed, not only the compression of a disc (which they saw in the CAT scan) but also signs of bone cancer.  They are ordering more tests to confirm whether or not it is.  Beings that 8 out of 9 kids in his family had some form of cancer, the odds are not in his favor.  With that being said, he has out lived all of his brothers by about 20+ yrs., so I guess God has blessed us with having his presence in our lives this long.
I am not giving up hope and, of course, ask for your prayers.  I do know this much, if it is cancer, I would rather let him go now than see him suffer any more pain.  He has been through enough of that.  Thank you in advance for your prayers and support!!  May God’s will be done, Amen and Amen.
Much love to you all, 

Happily Free

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Over Me

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World Undone

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First One for 2013

Hi to all my friends!!  My first post for 2013.  I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and New Year holiday.  You know how mine was going 😦 but this year is already getting better, thank the dear Lord!!

My check finally arrived on the 4th and I was able to actually get the gas company to fill our tank that same day.  The first thing Mark said was “Crank up that heat!!”  We are now warm and cozy.

Dad came home from the hospital last Friday and is doing better mentally since he got home.  He always seems to get so disoriented when he’s not there.  They don’t know for sure when they will be able to leave for Florida but are hoping for sometime next week.

Penny is doing better.  She has been released to drive now and that helps just knowing that she can go somewhere if she needs/wants to without having to have someone else take her.  She feels less like a burden.

I got a special treat last week too.  I was checking our stats on the shop and there was a message showing.  When I opened it, I was delighted to find an invitation.  It was from Main Street Artisans.  They asked if we would be interested in joining their group of artisans and displaying some of our “art” in their online store.  I asked them to e-mail me the particulars and said I was honored that they would like to include us.

When I received the info, I was thrilled to find out that it is actually a local shop and they have invited us to put stuff in that shop as well.  We can either rent a booth or do it on consignment.  Isn’t that cool?!!

I had been working on some new clay techniques anyway and thought I would share a few things with you today along with the update.

First up are some jewelry sets that I created using canes I bought from a lady on Etsy.  I even made rings to match with these sets.

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And now, these are from canes that I made.  The first two sets are pins with matching earrings.

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I hope you enjoyed the display as much as I did creating them.

Thank you for your prayers and support over the last few months, they helped tremendously!!!  Looks like this year has gotten of to a much better start and I am encouraged that it will continue on that path! 

Love and hugs to you all, God bless,


I Had No Choice But To Do It Now

Hi everybody!  I had no choice but to do another post today and ask for even more prayer.  Mom just called and they are admitting dad to the hospital with pneumonia.  She said his left lung is full of fluid.  He has been sick with the flu since after Christmas and debating whether to go to the ER for the last couple of days but they’ve been so many this year that she was afraid Medicare would stop paying for it.  It appears that they waited too long.  Please pray for him!  I guess it’s good that he’s here and not in Florida.  They were delayed in leaving because of the snow, thank God!!

My ordeal started at the beginning of December.  I told Sara that this would be a great lesson for her about counting your chickens before they hatched.  She didn’t know what that meant, lol, so I had to explain it to her but I’m sure you all will get it right away.

Mark definitely hasn’t been happy with me at all over this whole catastrophe!

It all started in September.  I got a letter from my pension fund that my old company was offering me a buyout option.  Since I would only be collecting $60 a month from it, and we needed the money now, I decided to take them up on it.  We had to have all the paperwork filled out and turned in by the first of November.  My benefit to be paid out at the first of December.

With me starting up the store and all, I used some of Mark’s harvest overtime money to purchase supplies and stock my store.  I figured that he wouldn’t be done with harvest until some time in November anyway and I’d replace that money when I got my payout.  The way the weather was doing, I wasn’t too worried about filling our LP tank until around the first part of December either, we had over 20% still left in it to begin with.

I was getting quite a nice sum.  Planned on paying off a lot of bills, fixing my car that’s been broken down since before Thanksgiving, and so on.

Well, the first rolls around and no money.  I called and asked what was going on.  I was told that there were so many people who decided to take the buyout that they were overwhelmed and the checks were delayed for a week or so.  Then a week turned into two.  The weather got cold and we started using up the gas faster.  I had to turn the heat down to 64 to slow the progress.  It’s cold in here and we have to walk around with layered clothing.  Right now I’m sitting here with thick socks on, sweat pants, a tee-shirt and a chenille sweater.  I have a lap blanket too.

When the money still had not arrived by the middle of December, I called them again and was told that they had to set up two runs for the payments and mine was in the second one.  Now I would not be getting my check deposit until Christmas Eve.  I thought I was having a nervous breakdown.  Mark was furious with me!!  I told him that I knew it was my fault and all I could do was say that I was sorry.  I was bawling for days.  He said that it better be here by then or s— was going to hit the fan.

I went on site to check on it the 21st and it showed that the electronic transfer was processed for deposit on the 24th.  I thanked God that Christmas would not be totally ruined and Mark could go ahead and use his paycheck to get presents for his family gathering on Christmas Eve.

Not so fast, and this is where the suicidal thoughts came in.  That morning I went to check my bank account and no money!!!!  I got on the phone to the bank first, just making sure that they were not holding it for 24 hours like they do a check you hand deposit.  They said no.

I call the pension people, now a total wreck, and found out that they sent it to the wrong bank transit number!!  A week or two prior, one of their ladies and I had caught that error and fixed it.  We even laughed about how upset I would have been if we hadn’t.  And they still sent it to the wrong number!!!!!!!!!

I think Mark and Sara were doing a watch on me all day.  I was in no shape to go to his parent’s house so they went by themselves but came home a couple of times to check on me and see if I was up to coming over, supposedly.

I was told that I now had to wait until the money bounced back to them before they could get it issued in a physical check and mail it to me.  That is, of course, as long as that number didn’t actually go to a real bank.  If it did, then I would have to go to that bank and negotiate the return of my funds!!!!!!!!!!!

Welcome to my world!  I still have not received my money yet, though it is supposedly on the way.  We have less than 10% gas left.  All the people that I made payment arrangements with to pay-off on the 1st are still waiting for their money.  A couple even threatened to sue. 

IT HAS BEEN A HELL OF MY OWN CREATION!  Who would ever have thought this would happen?  We are talking about TRW (my employer) and Fidelity (pension holder)!  They are not some mom and pop operation and have no excuse, in my book, for how this all turned out.  They not only ruined Christmas for my little family, who have received nothing as of this date, but now my New Year’s Eve plans with my grandchildren as well!

Now we are faced with dad in the hospital too.  I fear that he is not going to make it through this winter.  So, again, I must enlist my prayer warriors in cyberspace to do their thing!!

Thank you all for listening to me whine, for commenting, for praying and just for being my friends!!!!!!!!!!

When I say that I couldn’t have done it without you, I truly mean it!!!

God bless, Terri