I’m Still Here, Barely

Hello dear friends,

I’m still here but the stress has taken it’s toll.  Between my dad, Sara’s suicide watches, Mark’s rare heart diseases, and now my other brother’s cancer that requires aggressive chemotherapy, I’ve been rocked to the core.  I know you’ve been wondering and I’m sorry for leaving you all hanging but I just couldn’t find it in me to write.  I’ve immersed myself into my clay but that’s not even come easily.  I have to make myself do something every day, rather than wanting to.  I know this will all pass, it will go as God wills it, and …  My brother was the last straw, and he won’t even talk to me 😦 .

I cutting this shorter than what I meant to but the tears are flowing again and I just can’t…

Love and blessings to you all, Terri

A-Z ARCHIVE: N! CHALLENGE; Name

There’s a Name
above all names
I am clinging to

Unto earth came
to die in shame
all for me and you

My current life
heaped with strife
and the mounting stress

Won’t take me down
when He’s around
my each day to bless

That I not fall
His Name I call
to always sustain me

For I do know
trapped in the flow
by my side He’ll be!

Teresa Marie 4/3/12 ©

 

 


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My Absence – Updates – Praying

Where to start:

1)  Mom brought dad home from the hospital today.  They will need to stay down in Florida for a couple more weeks until the doctor clears him to come home.  Good news, he is eating well and in fair spirits.

2)  The principle at Sara’s school did an investigation into her being bullied after I spoke with him this morning.  Although the girls denied any involvement, they know he is watching them and they have backed off Sara.  Good news.

3)  Penny had her second bypass a couple of weeks ago.  She was in a lot of pain when I talked to her last Wed. afternoon.  I have been trying to call her on and off since and was going to go by there in the morning if I still got no answer.  Her younger son answered her phone today and informed me that they took her to the emergency room last night.  The new bypass is blocked.  They took her down to Methodist Hospital.  She will see the specialist down there in the morning.  It doesn’t look good beings that her foot is turning purple.  PLEASE pray for her!!!  Losing her foot/leg was one of her biggest fears when we talked before her last surgery.

4)  My eldest is suffering her own minor nervous breakdown right now and I have been trying to help her get some perspective on life and how to get through her current crisis.  She said she thought it was pretty bad that at 33 years old she had to come running home to mommy!  I told her that’s what I’m here for 🙂  

5)  I’ve been going back and forth between sleeping a lot to keep up with the toll of the stress and/or being immobilized by it all.  Therefore, I have not had the energy to do my blog and don’t know exactly how soon I will be back.  It will probably be hit and miss for a little while.  

I am sorry to disappoint those who look forward to their daily laughs and promise to try to make it a short absence.

Love to all,

Terri

The Wintertime

In the wintertime
oft’ I’ve found
spirits get low
nerves are ground

With the snow
that’s falling down
in a world
an ugly brown

Life seems all
dead and gone
when you’re trying
to hang on

As the stress
keeps adding up
and overflows
your peaceful cup

Don’t forget this
most important thing
that all hope
does eternally spring

Just as Winter
ever comes around
so with Spring
will life abound!

Teresa Marie   11/26/11

 

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My Monday Thoughts – Hanging In There

I just wanted to let everyone know that I am hanging in there, it may be by my nails though! 

I am waiting for a phone call with a court date and time mostly (along with a few other things that I can’t talk about right now.)  The only way to keep my sanity is to write.  My concentration level as far as reading anything is about zero.  I’m not so very sick as to just sleep the time away.

So I will just continue to write today and won’t expect you to read everything that I do.  It is purely an exercise in stress relief.  Believe it or not, I probably won’t publish half of what I do write but write I must.  Almost sounds cliché, doesn’t it?  Kind of like “to do or die”, lol.

Though I know God is working everything out, the waiting is a pain!

Love to all,
Terri